My Daily Battling Thoughts

🕯 Thoughts of Loss and Absence 

"I can't believe he's gone." 

"This doesn't feel real." 

"I miss him so much it hurts." 

"How do I live without my sweet son?" 

"Everything feels so empty now." 

💭 Thoughts of Guilt and Regret 

"I should have done more." 

"Why didn’t I say goodbye properly?" 

"If only I had woken up earlier..." 

"I wasn’t a good enough mother." 

"Did I cause this somehow?" 

😔 Thoughts of Helplessness and Despair 

"I don’t know who I am without him." 

"Nothing matters anymore." 

"What’s the point of anything now?" 

"I feel like I’m falling apart." 

"I can’t handle this." 

😠 Angry or Resentful Thoughts 

"Why did this happen?" 

"It’s not fair." 

"Derek, you were taken too soon." 

"No one understands how I feel." 

"How can people just keep living like nothing happened?" 

🧠 Intrusive or Anxious Thoughts 

"What if something happens to someone else I love?" 

"What if I forget the memories we made?" 

"Is it wrong that I laughed today?" 

"Am I grieving the right way?" 

"Will this pain ever end?" 

🌤 Moments of Acceptance or Reflection 

"You wouldn’t want me to suffer forever." 

"I’m grateful for the time we had." 

"I’ll carry your memory with me." 

"Maybe this pain means you really mattered." 

"I’m starting to understand life differently now." 

By nightfall I’m in a reflective mood and feel exhausted. So I fight going to asleep as long as I can, to get to feel these fleeting moments a little longer.